before you get the gift

before getting the gift... we should be well-prepared.

recently i discover a secert... (may be i already know it, but didn't face it) certainly about myself... some fears are still affecting me... those past bad experiencese... those failed tries... it is affecting me a bit...
i dare not to try anymore... since i'm afraid to fail again... what to try? to ask for a gift from god... may be no one knows what i'm talking about here... but for those who knows me so much.. pls pray for me... not only for this time... is for my entire life... there is a must to overcome the past bad experiences... otherwise... too many thing would be affected.

god... i really need your help here... since i'm useless and empty.


ps:
ManU is game over (UEFA)... well... i feel happy (sorry to those ManU fans)
trying the best to make myself under-control...